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So this week i had booked off work because it was my birthday on Monday...ive tried really hard to be so good but on Saturday we had a massive birthday celebration for me which although i didnt eat hardly anything accept a bread roll, some salad, and a tiny beef burger, i drank ALOT!! the calories i must have consumed in just the liquid i swallowed i dread to think :(
Anyhow the rest of the week i have been really good and eaten nothing unless i have had to and even then i have been feeling sick so haven't eaten much at all. i got alot of cake as well for my bday but i have only eaten one, my partner has eaten the rest :)
He has gone away for the night though so i have treated myself to some wine, chocolate and a veg on the sofa with a film :) im blocking out all the calories and i'm not going to weigh myself until Sunday morning or Monday morning...i am determined not to have put on though anything 143 or under i will be very happy with :)
Stay strong
Much Love
Justthebeginning

Slight Progress!

So Girlies i am making progress :) slowly but surely and in the right direction :)
Today i weigh 143.8lbs that's a 1.8lb loss....yes not amazing news i know but still I'm closer to my goal.
I get paid next Friday so am going to buy some diet pills to give my body a real boost in losing this weight :) even if i lose enough to be in the 130's i'l be happy because i have been stuck in the 40's for way too long  :(
Il keep you updated on my weight loss and if the diets pills work
Take Care and Stay Strong
Justthebeginning
xxx

Some Thinspo Pictures :)

Hey girlies, here is some thinspo pictures to try and keep you all motivated and staying strong :)

^^^ I Will have my collar bones showing through like that! I think it seems so attractive :) ^^^

^^^ I WILL look that good in a bikini ^^^

^^^I WILL gett that gap in my thighs ^^^

^^^This girl is my main thinspo - she weighed the same as i did when i started in her before picture and her after picture is about 10-15lbs more than my ultimate goal. If she can do it then so can i :) ^^^

So Long!

I haven't updated my blog on such a long time because lets be honest i feel like a failure. i did the ABCdiet for about two weeks but crumbled after that and from then on i have failed at even the slightest goal. i got down to 141lbs but now i am 145.6 lbs and feel horrible. if i would have stayed on track i would have lost so much by now :( for some reason i cannot seem to program myself to be strict. i want to get down to 140lbs and im going to do it by next week and im going to make sure of it no matter what! ive been a fat pig for long enough and now its time to pull myself back into shape :)
Lets hope i can :)
stay strong ladies
Justthebeginning


P.s. A QUOTE I AM LIVING BY......'TODAY'S SACRIFICE IS MY FUTURES SUCCESS'