:( why???

Why oh why am i such an idiot! i cant believe how much i ate yesterday :( i don't even want to recall what i shoved into my body :( :(
i knew this week would be a struggle due to birthdays and days out but i thought i would be able to control myself. i failed miserably :( cakes, sweets, a massive buffet
i feel so disgusted in myself...next week i am going to restrict like never before. i will punish myself for being so greedy and stupid. i will hit my next target of 145 by Friday even if i struggle i don't care. I will look beautiful and pretty and pure. i will be thin...I WILL BE THIN! i will each 100lbs :)
Stay Strong :)
xx